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The Celexa makes me crazy. Crazier. I can't make this any better. Going to call the doctor tomorrow and if he doesn't change this, I will have to find a new doctor. With a new medication. Again. WHY CAN'T I JUST BE NORMAL?!?!?!depression

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I'm fucking done. I'm sitting here slicing through my skin and wondering what one cut the wrong way will do. If I dare try it. My stupid bitch mother. I'm trying to help my 14 year old brother because you know where I was at 14?! Cleaning up her fucking bottles. Putting her to bed. Being her fucking parent. But now I'm the bad guy. It's me who's at fault. Who needs this bullshit? I'm better off dead.

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I feel so helpless today, like nothing I do is ever the right thing. My anxiety is through the roof, which means I'll have to load up on sleeping pills to get to bed. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I took one too many. If I ended my life, died in my sleep, a peaceful angel. I think about how my family would feel. They have their little golden boy so I'm sure they wouldn't feel much. I want to leave this place so badly. This world has nothing left for me.
Current Mood:
frustrated frustrated
Current Music:
King for A Day- Pierce the Veil
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